ITS JUST ONLY ME - confession of a lonely girl (Growing up)

This blog will be in dual language (English-Malay) as i'm not really good in English and hope that it can be understand and also for my part, i will do my best to write it in English. My name is Hana. By the time i'm writing this blog my age was 27 years and 7 months. I'm a graduate of Bach. Deg. Hons. Eng. Tech. in Business Management from UniKL-IPROM. I have been working with several international and local company ( 4 chinese and 2 malay - these including my industrial training period). Well now, i'm a house wive. I do some online business. I know it's pretty new, and small market but if i believe in myself these thing can go further. And the best thing is that i don't have to face those "sick" people/bosses in the office. hehehe.. But i do still applying jobs but for this time around i only ACCEPT for the big company. My husband says " it's okay, i will not pressure you to look for a job. i just want you to feel the experience of working with a big companies and not like your previous cold-hearted bosses". Well, yeah.. i guess i have no luck yet.. but still hoping for that kinda experience.

Grew up in a family with mostly conquer by boys.. i couldn't shape myself to be true lady... sometimes i feel lost... most of the childhood times.. just be only me and my dolls.. left there playing alone by myself.. my mom working, so everyday after got back from school, i got no one to talk with.. so that situation creates n shapes what i am now.. unfriendly and always fly-high in my own world.. i got imaginary friend, but i forgot their names.. so each times i feel like i wanna talk to someone.. i'll talk to them.. they know how to treat me n they treat me well enough.. sometimes i get fight with my mom, well that was wen i was still young.. i don't know what am i thinking back then.. i'm just tired being the only girl in the family.. i want a sister- a big or small sister.. i dun mind but that hopes never been heard by anyone... cause i keep it to myself... i used to hate my parent so much.. you know those teenage-blood.. but as i grew up i learnt that family comes first.. and then i realizes how much my parent have been sacrifices for me n other siblings.. i cried.. and starting from that moment.. i'll never ever gonna forget them, not till i die.. i promise to myself one day when i become rich.. i let them travel all around the world, staying in a 5 star hotels, enjoying those golden years with pleasure... One fine day..